Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I hate waiting

So, I started Power 90 on Sunday instead of Saturday.  I have done it three days in a row now.  It will be more challenging once my mom is back in town.  But I'm setting my alarm for 6:30 so I can meditate and work out before Dave and Max get up.  What a grown up thing to do.

I am not a grown up.

And I am either getting my period or had implantation bleeding.  It's a bit early for my period.  Day 24.  I am going through major carb cravings and am bitchy as hell, though, so it could be pms.  I don't know.  I sure don't want to get my period, though.

Max finally got all the poop out, I think.  What a fiasco this is!  I hate his constipation and anal retention.  It's so frustrating.

I am not going to bother weighing myself in the morning because I ate so much today.  I'm back in the 170s.  Why am I doing this to myself?  It's so irrational.

Oh well.  At least I'm doing some good things.  And I'm supposed to be practicing non-judging.  That's not easy.  Oh, I think I see, yes, I do!  A pink satin bra on the floor.  There are all kinds of clothes all over the place, everywhere in my house.  I'll work on that.  This bra I just found is one I haven't seen in awhile.

Okay, that's a good post.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Such a slacker!

Wow, I haven't posted in a long time!

I'm starting Power90 tomorrow, to celebrate eight months until my birthday.  Today I went to the Fresh Market.  I finally got my eggplant so I'll be attempting ratatouille quiche tonight.

I have something of a sore throat and I'm not sure why.  And my stupid fertility won't register higher than high, and I need it to be peak!  And at this point I just feel like I'm going to get my period so go figure.  I had a major carb/binge fest yesterday.  And I didn't gain any weight, so there!

Anyway, I'm not sure what else to say.  I'm not being as productive as I should be but I will get there.  I'm hungry right now.  I'm trying to start drinking more water again.  And I'm going to get some writing done today as well.  I'm tired of not being happy with myself.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Why am I getting a headache?  Why is my throat still sore? 
I don't want to walk Pierre because it's yucky out but since it's not raining I think I have to.  Maybe later.  Like when my mom is playing with Max.
I haven't meditated yet either.  And I haven't done my T Tapp.

But I will do all these things.  I did make a playlist for the vampire book.  So now I can have more appropriate music to write to. 

I don't really feel like doing much of anything.  I guess I will take a Tylenol 4 but that might upset my stomach.  Which is not a good thing.

Well, I am something like 20,000 words behind already for the month so I need to get my ass in gear!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

So, I have walked Pierre and done my meditation today.  I'm working on drinking my water but I'm a bit behind I think.  I don't think I'll make it to Mass because it's raining so hard and I don't feel like going out in the mess.  And I have something of a sore throat.

I have yet to T Tapp but I will.  Even though I have a sore throat.  And I didn't fast.  I had a grilled cheese sandwich around 3.  But that's okay.  I'm not worrying about that.

I have written a little bit but will write more.  I will not be catching up today but maybe I'll make some progress.

And I got the house stuff together for SKD.

Max is wearing his pull ups.  I think they stink.  And I don't know what happened to his painting that he did yesterday.  I hope it turns up.

I am still kind of hungry but I don't know yet if I want to eat anything else. 

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


So, I am going to walk Pierre, do my T Tapp 6 times a week (after a two week boot camp), and do a daily meditation every day for Lent.  I am not giving up internet, television, or coffee.

I will go to Mass tomorrow evening.  I do not think I will fast.  I am hungry just thinking about it.

I wish I didn't have to worry about money.  I am so not happy with the money situation.  I want it to go away but I don't know how to do that.
Wow, what is going on with me?  I'm well nigh insatiable these days and there is no particular reason for it.  I wish I had a reason for trying every day.  I don't even want to write because it's just going to turn into porn and that's not what I'm working on.

I lost 3.5 pounds yesterday.  I'm drinking my third liter of water for the day right now.  I also have a headache, which I took a Tylenol 4 for.  I wonder if it's from doing my seated meditation for 15 minutes.  I kind of think so but I think it's a good thing to be building up strength, if that's what I need. 

I washed Sissy's rug in the washing machine.  I don't know if it looks any better.  And it still needs to be vacuumed.  It's hanging outside over the porch railing.  I'm glad I did it, and I've done two other loads of laundry today.  And I'm making yogurt.  Speaking of which, I need to put it in the yogurt maker!  I think it's cooled down too much now!

Monday, March 7, 2011

Well, I have missed days again.  I guess I've been busy.  We went to Atlanta and the opera.

I sure do want to have sex.  I guess it's a good thing that I'm pretty sure we're going to.  I wonder if this means I'm ovulating.

I'm going to change the sheets in a little bit.  And I guess I'll be going through another box of stuff as well.  And I need to find my ipod so I can play this playlist I keep playing.  To write to.

I am planning another epilation session for this evening as well.  I wonder how long I'll be able to keep this up.  I wonder if it will even work.  I sure would like to stay hairless for awhile. 

I have been going in the wrong direction with regard to my weight loss and that's disappointing but I've done well today and I will keep that up.  I'm a little behind on my water for the day but it's not hopeless.

My mom brought over the meditation cushion so that is good. 

I am missing a pillowcase.  I'm sure it will turn up but it's annoying.  They are my favorite sheets.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

So my sister passed her driving test!  First time.  So that's good.

I have kind of a raging headache for some reason.  I took a shower because Max peed on me.  He is constipated and refuses to try to poop so I had him sitting on his potty and he peed on me.  He got really upset about it but it wasn't a huge deal to me.  And on the changing table he threw up because he was so upset.  I feel so bad for him.  I hate that he has this problem.  It's so hard.  It makes me cry.

I am not packed for our trip tomorrow but I'll get there.  I won't have a lot of time tomorrow but I'll get it  done.  Of course I will.  What choice do I have?

I am behind in my writing.  I'm going to catch up eventually. 

I'm really hoping we'll have sex tonight.  Don't know what's up with me these days.

SKD and I were making toe jokes via text because of his toe doctor appointment toemorrow.  It's not at toe o'clock, but 8:30.  And he's driving the toe-yo-ta, not a toe truck.  Toekay?  I think that's about all we got in.  I know it's dumb but I was amused.

Okay, time to see about getting my bangs fixed right so they're not all crazy tomorrow.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Getting back on track

Well, I was so busy watching Chuggington with Max that I forgot about America's Next Top Model.  I'm pissed.  Oh well, I will watch it later.  I recorded part of it but I want to see the beginning.

I have been wasting time and doing some "landscaping."  I wish I could afford to get waxed.  I've got my epilator charging and I'll probably do a pass tomorrow to start maintaining.  It's nice that I can actually see some of what's going on down there now that I'm twenty pounds lighter.

I am back to where I was on Valentine's Day.  I hope I start making progress again.  I've got to exercise in a minute.  And I haven't done any cleaning or decluttering.  Well, I guess I washed diapers today and that counts for something.

I also have to catch up on my writing from yesterday and do today as well.  I have a lot of energy at the moment, though.

Starting again

I can't believe I didn't post at all in February.  Oh well.  I'm going to post two times today so I can start having a daily entry.

I am back on my diet, and my vitamins, and my water drinking.  And I'm writing, working out, and decluttering.  I'm doing it all.

I'm feeling good these days.  I think the trip to the beach was great.  And I found a sand dollar there!
We also saw dolphins and alligators.  I love the beach.  I am going to live there one day soon.  Maybe not full time, but I want a house there.  I love Kiawah.

Okay, I have to get this water drunk so I can go to class.