Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Maybe things are getting better

Well, SKD talked to the mortgage company and it sounds like they will suspend our foreclosure sale so that is a relief.  Still need money, and it looks like I won't get my free proof because they have to review it first, but I am glad I submitted something even though it's not finished.  This way I won't feel as bad about working on it more and getting a real proof, even if I have to pay for it.
I hope I stop feeling so sick to my stomach after all this but I still do and I'm really tired.
I'm going to start writing in my paper journal again tomorrow and also start working on a new novel in addition to revising and adding more to the one I've been working on.
I need to figure out a way to make some money.
I had a good therapy appointment today and also took Pierre for a walk.
Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Fuck Tuesday

So I got the stuff faxed today.  And feel worse than ever.  I need money, and I need time.  And I am really unhappy.  I like writing and am glad I'm working on this, but I'm so anxious.  I have so much trouble sleeping and I just want everything to be okay.
I hope the stuff works out with the house because I don't know what I'll do if it doesn't.  I don't know when I'll be able to get all the stuff out.  I can't deal with this.  I hate my life at the moment.
I hate needing money and I am really frustrated that I'm feeling like such a loser at the moment.  Not a good way to be productive.  At least after tomorrow I will have a book proof to show for something and then maybe things will get better.  I am trying to pretend like everything is going to be okay.  
I just want sometime good to happen today.  More than finding the download of a song that I want.  That doesn't cut it.  I want sometime better than that.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Down to the Wire

Brunch was nice yesterday but mostly about politics.  And one person there took three pieces of the asparagus quiche just for the asparagus, just picked it all out and left the rest.  That made me mad but oh well.
Today I've gotten in touch with the mortgage company and have to fax everything again.  They want a different form filled out so I guess I'll see if SKD and I can do that tonight.
I'm also busy working on my mystery so I'll have a draft ready for the proof by Wednesday.  I somehow mixed up my days and thought that the 30th was Thursday.  So now I have even less time.  I feel all sick inside still.  Not a good feeling.
And I didn't sleep well last night.
I need money.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Sunday Brunch

Making my quiches for Sunday brunch and it's taking longer than it should, as usual.  I am running late.  I feel so completely nervous I don't even have an appetite.  
My mom came over to make her scones so we could have coffee together.
I know that some of my nerves come from the house and money situations, but that doesn't seem like a reason for all of it. 
I want everything to work out and I don't anything about anything.  I guess tomorrow I will have some news.  I hope I can make it all work.
Max is wearing his tank top with a peace sign on it and looks like a little gay boy.  I will have to take a picture of him.  He's very cute.
Blah.  I don't like waiting for things.  

Saturday, June 26, 2010

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y Night!

Yes, I know I'm a dork.  I woke up at 5:20 this morning and got up and started reading The Girl Who Played with Fire (Vintage).  Then I went back to bed until a bit after 9:00.  Max was awake and yelling about trains so I got him up.  He got mad at me because I wouldn't make him macaroni and cheese for breakfast.
Then my mom came over and we had coffee and she brought me a chocolate croissant.  Suzy and the cousins left super early so they would be at home to watch the World Cup.  My mom played with Max for a little bit and then went home.
I played with Max and then Dave got up and then they hung out.  I took a nap when Max took his nap, and then Dave took a nap too.  We all slept for a long time.  
Our power went out for a little while and Max was really mad about it.  Fortunately it came back on so he could watch some more Thomas.
I have been working on my mystery, rearranging things and now I'm trying to write some more so it's longer.  I'm down to the wire.
Finally I've taken a shower and don't feel so gross.  Maybe I'll get lucky tonight.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Family Friday

Today I got up and then after I dropped Max off I met my mom and Suzy (my aunt) at Panera.  That was fun.  My aunt is listening to the book that I decided I didn't want to read: A Gate at the Stairs.  I like the language in it but the story is awful.  I usually finish books that I start but not that one.
Last night I finished reading The Luxe, which I did like.  I know it's fluff, but it was quite enjoyable and I will read the rest of the series.
I also printed a bunch of stuff that needs faxing to the mortgage company, and I think that tomorrow the air conditioning people are going to go look at the condenser at the Atlanta house to see if maybe they didn't hook things back up the right way.  I hope that fixes it!
I am still all anxious and my stomach is so upset!
I took Pierre for a walk after breakfast.  And then I'll do my T-Tapp.  I did 22 minutes of it last night which was good but I think I will be able to do the whole thing, as long as I start earlier than 10 p.m.!
Anyway, I am glad that I'm getting some stuff done, even though I don't feel really productive.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Worried Thursday

I have been feeling worried sick all day.  That is not a good place to be.  However, I did get a lot done.  I had therapy and piano, and moved the dresser from the nursery into the bedroom.  And then put the television on top of it.
I started doing some stuff on my book as well.  And I talked to my Mac assistant who told me to call him if my computer started fucking up even though the warranty has run out, and he had some good suggestions so we will see if they work.
And I feel like I'm hiding in the sand regarding the foreclosure stuff, which totally isn't productive.
I am really hungry right now even though I haven't had much of an appetite all day.  Jimmy John's sounds appealing but I don't know if I feel like ordering out.
I need money.  I hate needing money.
Pierre and I went for our walk.  I want to do the long workout I have because I figure that I should be able to do it for two weeks straight and get results, and that would be a good thing.  I am so tired of being fat and blah.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Wednesday. Period.

So.  Not pregnant and that means next cycle is ruined as well because I'll be out of town during all the good days.  Too bad, because it would have been neat to have had a baby born on my mom's birthday, since Max was born on SKD's mom's birthday.
Oh well.  Yogurt and fruit diet is good but I am up a pound from yesterday.  But that's kind of silly since I didn't just eat yogurt and fruit and there are other things that could cause that one pound gain.  I don't really worry about things like that.
My mom is coming over and then we're going to run some errands.  And then I have piano.
I am excited about tonight!
There is a roach in the laundry room.  I hate roaches and am petrified of them, even the dead and dying ones.  I know they are out to get me.  And right now there are so many of them!  It's so creepy and gross!
I really need to be working on my book and getting it finished up.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Yogurt Tuesday

I am starting my yogurt and fruit diet today.  That isn't all I'm eating, but I'm focusing on that.  I can't believe the yogurt I made a couple weeks ago is still good!  It seems like I made it a long time ago but it tastes okay.  I have a big thing of fruit I have to eat up too before it goes bad.
Tomorrow I'm going over to my mom's and we're going to have dinner and watch Sherlock Holmes.  I'm making ratatouille, and we're going to have bread and cheese and dessert.  Athey is going to eat and watch with us as well, so it's going to be fun!
I took Pierre for a walk a little bit ago.  We only did 15 minutes, but it wore him out.  Poor fat puppy!  I guess we are overweight by the same amount, relatively speaking.  Well, I might not be as overweight as he is, but it's close enough to make a comparison.  He wears it better than I do, though.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Migraine Monday

I didn't have any caffeine today and am suffering the consequences.  Max didn't want to go to school this morning but he's fine once he gets there.  When I went to pick him up he was doing Thomas puzzles with two other boys.  That was nice to see.
We went to Earthfare and Target today.  I got more of my beloved P.F. Chang's Beef with Broccoli from Target.  I love it!  And I got Pirate Booty and milk and yogurt and some other stuff at Earthfare.  
I am sort of hungry but still headachy.  Maybe some cinnamon toast and hot tea.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Happy Father's Day

This morning has been busy but not a lot of fun.  Max woke up at 7:00.  I thought it was 8:00 and then called my mom at 7:30, thinking it was 8:30.  This woke her up.  Then she came here for coffee and then we went to her house to start repotting the plants we got yesterday.  And I fought with the Topsy Turvy Tomato thing and won!
Then we came home to give Serial Killer D (SKD from here on out) his Father's Day card (musical Star Trek) and the artwork Max made for him at school last week.
I got all hot and sweaty which I hate.  I need to take a shower.
And I am late but still no positive which probably means I am just late and that is so frustrating!
Oh, and last night Max was spinning in the office and tripped and fell into the filing cabinet, banging his head really hard.  He had a big goose egg on it but it's all gone today.
Nothing really spooky or creepy in here yet, I know, but eventually it'll be in here. :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Southern Living

Yesterday felt quite productive--I did two loads of laundry, boiled peanuts in the slow cooker, made an asparagus and cheese quiche, and cut my hard copy of my novel draft into pieces so I can figure out the proper order for it.
I ate half the quiche and most of the peanuts during the day and still managed to lose 1.5 lbs.  So I am down 3.5 since getting back from the trip, which makes me happy.  I only gained a pound or so on the trip so this is very good.
This morning we went to Lowe's and got some tomatoes and other things, and Max played with the tractors.  Anytime anyone dropped something or crashed into something (this happened a few times), he would yell, "Oops, boss, sorry boss!" like Kevin from "Hero of the Rails."  Yes, my son is a train fanatic.
He loved the tractors and the lawn mowers, and then was having fun spinning in circles to make himself dizzy.  He also liked the fountains.  He didn't really want to leave.
Then we stopped at a fruit stand near the Lowe's and got some tomatoes, zucchini, a cantaloupe, more green peanuts for me, and some peaches.  Loving the fresh fruit and veggies right now.
After that, it was back to my mom's to drop the stuff off and divvy up the produce, and she played with Max while I visited with my sister and her baby.  Baby Natalee is so incredibly whiny at the moment, which is troubling.  And Max is being awful around her.  She was so happy to see him and he just yelled at her, and then cried when I held her.  Blah.  They were doing a lot better before the trip.
Anyway, now we're back at home and I guess Max will be taking his nap soon.  I would kind of like to take a nap but won't.  I need to go to the library to check in and check out my books, and I have some to return as well.

Friday, June 18, 2010


I suppose I am glad that it's Friday.  If Max understood about days of the week, he would be glad--no school!  
Pierre is snoring in the corner of the bedroom.
I wonder why it is that I always have such grand aspirations for my home decor and it inevitably deteriorates into Serial Killer.
I hope we get all the Atlanta house stuff worked out.  I don't like the idea of losing it although it would be nice to get my washer and dryer back.
Well, maybe I'll go fill up my water bottles so I can get back on track with that.  I haven't been doing well with the eating, drinking water, and exercising.  And I can put in some laundry since I have all the clothes from the trip left to wash.
And perhaps I will put on some music even though I never do that.