Sunday, November 7, 2010

I am behind on my crafts but on target (a little ahead even) on my writing.  So that's good.
And did day 2 of my boot camp.  And I ate only in my window.  So all of that is good.  I was down a pound this morning from the day before so almost to my low.  I hope I can keep up a 2 pound or more weight loss each week.  It's so much nicer to lose faster.

I guess I shouldn't want to lose fast but I'd love to be at goal by Valentine's Day.  Of course, I'd rather be pregnant and that will change things.

Well, that's about all for now. 

Saturday, November 6, 2010

I didn't remember the 5th of November

See what I did there?  I forgot to post yesterday.
I have ovulated so now I'm in the dreadful two week wait.
I didn't eat on my IF plan yesterday and am up 1.5 pounds but I'm not counting it.

I have to drink more water today.  At least I have my water bottle out of the fridge and sitting at my feet right now.
I started a crafting project last night and I wrote all my words for yesterday so that is a good thing.

I'm not sure what else to say at the moment.  I wish I felt like cleaning up.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Well, the furnace has been fixed.  And I think I ovulated yesterday.  I wonder if we should try again tonight? 
I've been keeping up with my words and I forgot about the diaper hunt yesterday but I'm on track with that as well.  I didn't do any crafting today.  That's not good but I'm still a little ahead.
I'm doing okay.  Tomorrow we're going to Starbucks.  And we have a lot of words to write this weekend.
What the hell?  My computer isn't behaving well.
It's annoying me.  Maybe it's the new version of Firefox I just installed.

I guess it's just being irritating but still working okay.

We took Max out to dinner tonight.  He was pretty good.  He has been staying up way too late and I'm kind of annoyed with SKD for not getting him to go to bed on time.

Well, I think tomorrow will be a good day.  Today was okay and could have been a lot worse.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

I'm a bit ahead on my words and I've made 6 items for my crafting.  I need to finish them up, put glue on the knots and that kind of thing.

So, I'm doing well.  I've lost a pound so far this month but I was up a pound on Monday so just getting back to where I was.

IF is still going well and I guess I'm going to ovulate soon so that's good as well.  I'm not totally caught up on my water but I'll be on track tomorrow.

I'm tired but waiting for SKD so we can try to make babies.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Well, I haven't done my craft for today but I'm going to make some crappy bracelets.  I want to finish my words for the day first.
I want to eat but it's out of my window so I'm not going to.  I haven't had any water today.  What is up with that?  I really want to get on track with these things.

Here's my hat that I made yesterday:
I am happy with it.  It's good with the longies.  The bracelets I'm making are from a kit but it will be five fast things and give me time to work on the cross stitch and not feel quite so stressed.

My mom and I are working on incentives for reaching our word goals on time.  We're going to write 10,000 words over the weekend.  Friday through Sunday.  That way we don't have to worry about Thanksgiving. 

I really need money.

Monday, November 1, 2010

All Saints Day

Well I've done my craft project for the day and haven't yet worked out or started on my writing.  And I am way behind on my water as well.

I will catch up, though.  I'm not stressing about it.

I am glad that I made the hat.  I will probaby do something else crafty today as well.  Right now my camera battery is charging so I can't post photos at the moment. 

I am going to start writing after I post this.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween!!!

It's been a long time since I last posted.  That's how things seem to go.
Anyway, I'm getting back into the swing of things, and will start my daily posting again, to go along with NaNoWriMo and NaNoCraftMo.  Maybe I'll post photos of the things I've made for the month.

I'm not having the greatest Halloween.  I had a migraine last night and threw up.  I still had a headache this morning but I took some Aleve and I feel okay now.  I had grilled cheese and tomato soup for lunch.  I am starting IF and opened my window at 2:30 today. 

I am way behind on my water but I'll work on catching up.  I certainly don't want another headache!

I only lost 16 pounds during my Halloween challenge, 9 fewer than goal.  I wish I were losing faster but I'm ramping up on exercise next month and I am going to try to reach goal by Valentine's Day, even though that's a very daunting task and will mean losing at a much faster rate than I have been.

Anyway, I'm setting myself up for success for the next 106 days, and I'm going to have a great and productive month!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Damn

I made boiled peanuts in the crock pot and forgot to put the salt in.  They are SO BLAND.  Yuck.  And I had some cake and that's not good.
I'm hungry and keep eating cake.  I need to stop that.
I think I might order Jimmy John's.  But I bet I'll eat more cake.
I wonder why I'm doing this.  It's not like I haven't been working really hard, and it's not like I want to lose almost 50 pounds.  So what's up?
Okay, maybe I'll get some real food.  I'm also behind on my water as usual.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Well, fuck.

I have to do something about that house in Atlanta.  It is causing no end of trouble.  I really loved the house when I was living there but now it's just a nuisance.  I don't even know what to do about it.  I want someone to move in there and buy it from us.  I wonder how I can make that happen.
Well, the weekend after this coming one I'll go over there and have people get the rest of our stuff out, and then the person living there can figure out what she's doing and I guess she's leaving too.  I really was hoping that something would work out.  
I'm just so annoyed and frustrated.  This isn't how things were supposed to work out.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Slacker!

I am being a slacker.  I want to catch up so will try to post again later.  It's going to take me a few days but I'll get there.
My therapist didn't put my appointment in her calendar so I went to her office and waited for 40 minutes, listening to her client, who had the most annoying voice.  I couldn't hear what she was saying, but the way she was talking was so weird!
I have a headache.  I think it is tension.
I want to lose 3 pounds before Thursday but I don't know if that's possible.  I doubt it but I'm so close to my pre-pregnancy weight.
Going to knit for the rest of the day, I think.
I'm also going to take something for my headache.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Digging a Hole

I am a bad person. 
I want to do the right thing and then I fuck it up and what the hell am I thinking?
I'm really mad at myself.
I will make things right and I will start doing and stop just thinking about it.
It's late.  I need to go to bed.
And when I wake up in the morning I will figure things out.
Why do I do such stupid things?
Why can't I just be responsible and own up?
Where am I going in this life?  I want things to start working out.  I want to stop feeling like I'm horrible.

Way behind again

Wow, now I'm even further behind.  Well, I'm back.  I've gotten some stuff accomplished but still no resolution to my money worries.  I have to get that figured out before tomorrow.
I'm going to clean and organize and craft today.
And I'm going to drink water and eat clean.  
I want to have things looking good by Thursday for Max's party.  I can't believe he'll be three!
I'm getting close to my pre-pregnancy weight, which was still too high but I'm going to make it before I get pregnant again.
I think I'll be doing the 15/15 today, since that way I can do some fun stuff and work stuff and feel productive.
I wish I were inspired to write, but I'm having trouble with that at the moment.  I need to just suck it up and do it already.  

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Whatever.

I have a headache.  Didn't fax the stuff to Chase but I'll do it in the morning.  I am pissed that they act like now it's all urgent when they didn't even bother calling me to let me know they were missing things, and now they've found one of the things they said they were missing.  I really dislike them.
I have cramps and a headache.  I took some Aleve and I'll go to bed soon.
Having coffee with an old friend in the morning, and then Max has the Fun Bus and we're going to Daddy's in the afternoon.
I am hoping I'll see a loss on the scale tomorrow but never expect anything.
I wish I could get myself motivated to exercise again.  I'm going to figure that out.
I'm going to bed soon so I'll have to catch up my last entry tomorrow.
I made a necklace and a bracelet today.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Back for seconds

Well.  Now I'm really hungry but I don't really want to eat anything.  I wonder what I could have for a tiny snack.  


I finally cut my fingernails.  And I am going to go to bed early tonight.  Well, earlier.  I can't believe tomorrow is Wednesday and ANTM is starting again.  


I really wanted to get Jimmy John's tonight but I didn't get it.  I wasn't hungry.  


I guess I'll go see about finding something to eat that won't totally fuck up my diet.

Feeling dizzy

I feel weird.  And I am pretty sure I'm going to get my period tomorrow.  But I'm not feeling all crampy anymore.  Oh well.  I really was hoping I'd be pregnant.
I emailed my dad and stepmother and told then I wanted to see them more regularly.  
And I went to Walgreen's and got some nail polish crap.  And more nail clippers.  
I had therapy this morning and that was good.  


Tomorrow I will go to EarthFare I guess.  I don't need anything yet but I will need milk.  I wonder what the coupon is going to be.  


I'm behind on my water.  Maybe I'm feeling weird because I haven't eaten much and I didn't get enough sleep.  Also I'm sure that this constant worrying about money isn't worthwhile.


I have to drink more water so I can take my stupid fiber pills that don't seem to work.


I talked to a friend whom I hadn't heard from in awhile, and another friend wants to meet for coffee this week and that's nice.  So I feel like I'm doing something right.


Well, I'm going to think about things and then maybe I'll post another entry, since I'm trying to catch up.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Starting to catch up

I will write a couple of entries each day to catch up.  I really don't like being behind.  I haven't been writing enough.  No fiction, no blog entries.  I am just not doing anything and it's not working for me.


Today I'm going to do some stuff.  I want to exercise, but I have to wait until SKD gets home.  And I want to make some stuff.  That I can do right now.  I also want to write and I can do that but I just don't know what to write.  I feel so uninspired.  And I know that shouldn't matter but it does.


Well, I'm going to do some stuff and feel like I've accomplished things.  Maybe next week on Tuesday or something I can go over to Atlanta to move the stuff.  I bet I'll be able to arrange that.  I just want it over with and I want to feel like I can move on.  I'm going to go through some stuff in that other room.  I can do that right now.  I want to feel like I'm not letting myself down and I want to live in a nice environment, not the shithole I've created.  At least the living room still looks pretty good.  


Okay, time to get some stuff done now that I'm all stressed out.

Way behind

Well, crap.  I am pretty sure that the power got cut off at the Atlanta house but I'm so fucking tired of the person living there not bothering to get in touch with me, and why in hell am I paying the utility bills and why is my husband covering the mortgage when she isn't paying anything?  I'm so angry at her right now.
I don't have any money and I am so stressed out about it.  I don't want to have to worry about her money as well.  I guess I'm going to have to find a time to go over there but I don't think it will be happening until my mom gets back.  I guess I'm going to try to get some people to move out all the rest of the stuff there.
Ugh.  I'm so mad about this.  Fuck.


I really need money and I need to not have to worry about it all the time.  I am going to make money and I am going to have enough to be comfortable economically and SELF-SUFFICIENT.


I'm so upset now.  I don't have it in me to be living this stressed out all the time.  It's just not working.  And I don't know what to do about it.  I am so angry.  I don't deserve this crap.  I'm really glad no one is reading this right now.  


I thought she was my friend.  I guess not.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Thursday

We went to Becky's this morning, fun as usual.  I was up half a pound which made me mad but I'll live.
I had a horrible headache which went away and then came back but now seems to have gone away again.  But I have no energy.
Max was really cranky but after some snuggle time seems to be feeling happier.
I am kind of hungry but I don't feel like eating anything, nor do I feel like drinking my water.
I think I'll start making something or working on something today.  I wish my beads would hurry up and get here.
I am really happy with my new lamp.  I think I'll see if it fits on the mantelpiece.
Have to finish Hornet's Nest today so I can give it back to Alice tomorrow.  

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Wednesday

I feel kind of crampy but it's way too early for that.  But I'm expecting the worst at this point.
Went to JoAnn's and got bead stuff and glitter and floss.
We also went to the grocery store.  I'm going to make chicken salad with the rotisserie chicken I got.
I made some coconut oil and cocoa stuff but it tastes too much like cocoa to be really good.  That's kind of disappointing but we'll see.
I ate well today and have been drinking my water for the most part.  I have the last bottle to drink.
I don't have much else to say and I'm going to sleep pretty soon I hope.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Tuesday

Max was in a bad mood when I went to pick him up today.  Then he was fine for most of the day.  SKD got home late and I went out to dinner and that made Max mad.
Had dinner with my cousin and my mom and sister and niece.  I ate too much but at least it was on plan.  I don't think I need much at the store tomorrow.  
I'm tired so I think I'll go to sleep soon.  I almost forgot to write in here.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Monday

I got some stuff done today.  I made three bracelets, did two loads of laundry (one was diapers), made cheesecake muffins, made butter chicken, drank my water (well, am working on the last bottle now), cleaned up the living room, and put Max's toys away.  I also did my morning pages.  I did not work out.  I went to the grocery store.  
I'm not sure what else.  I'm glad I'm doing stuff, but kind of annoyed with myself that I didn't work out.
Also I have to figure out how to deal with the ends on these bracelets I made because they aren't going to feed through the beads.
My beads have shipped.  
I also didn't write for two hours.  Or go through the Jeff Herman book.  Well, I can't do everything.  And I did a lot.  I need to go dry the laundry that's in the washer because it's a lot of Max's clothes and he needs them for tomorrow.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

No cake Sunday

So I resisted the cake again today.  I am way behind on water so am drinking some with Crystal Lite because I can drink that faster.  I intend to catch up and be on target.
I have gotten some stuff accomplished on my goal list today but not everything.  I'm going to make my cheesecake muffins tonight and I've gotten the chicken for my butter chicken marinating.  And I cleaned out the fridge.  I didn't make my chart and I didn't get the laundry put away.  But I'm going to do flylady stuff tomorrow and that's going to be good.
I ordered my beads.  I want to do something else productive.  Right now I'm watching Leverage so it has to be something I can do at the same time.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Headache Saturday

Today has been pretty much of a wash.  I had a headache and took a nap, still had a headache and took a Tylenol 4.  Now headache is gone, Max is going to bed, and I am drinking my water but am behind.  Maybe we're going to watch The Wolfman tonight but I'm not sure.  SKD got it from Netflix.
I'm currently in the process of still catching up on Burn Notice.  
The MGD 64 ads really bother me.  Michelob Ultra only has like 95 calories, so what?  The guy has to burn off 30 calories to make the difference?  Big fucking deal.
Just finished talking to SKD about various things.  I am now even further behind with my water but I will catch up.  I'm tired of not losing weight and feeling blah, so I'm going to catch up.  Plus, I'm thirsty.
Okay, back to tv.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Friday

 I read the first 70 pages of Jeff Herman.  I'll go through 70 pages every day and then I'll have it read in 15 days.  That seems reasonable.  It's not like I have to read every page.
Working on Hornet's Nest.  
And I made two bracelets that my mom took.  
I also ate my PF Chang's beef with broccoli but with no rice.  I was super hungry so that made me go over in carbs but I still didn't eat many calories today.
I'm behind on my water but I need to catch up on it because of all the salt in my dinner.  It was really salty but still very good, like I remembered.  I thought maybe I wouldn't like it anymore.
I wish the dvr wasn't fucking up.  I don't really know what is going on in this Burn Notice I'm watching.  I'm trying to catch up on my tv.  I have so much to watch.
I am trying to keep my spirits up.  I am not doing so well though.  
I hate worrying about money.  Something needs to happen with that.  I really want to be financially independent.  And this worry is such a hindrance.
Maybe I will order my beads.  And I have starting ideas for my sketchbook project.  So that is something.  I have lots of good ideas, I just need to implement them.
We're going to the APL rummage sale tomorrow morning.  And I'm going to see if they still have that lamp that I liked.  They probably won't but that's okay.
I got some pink pens today and that is fun.  And some new ear buds.  Skull Candy.
All right.  That's enough for now.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Not a slacker today!

So this morning we went to Becky's and that was fun.  I did have peaches but no zucchini bread, bagels, or blueberry cake.  I'm hungry now and have had a piece of string cheese and some smoked almonds.  I will fix something more substantial soon.  This just isn't cutting it.
My mom will probably come over pretty soon.  It's Natalee's birthday today, and her party is later on.  I think I'll stop by the library on my way there so I can pick up my books that I have on hold.  There are three of them now, one of them being Jeff Herman's Guide to Book Publishers, Editors, and Literary Agents 2010, 20E: Who They Are! What They Want! How to Win Them Over! (Jeff Herman's Guide ... Editors, Publishers, and Literary Agents).  I checked that out before and couldn't renew it.  I guess whoever requested it didn't bother to get it and their hold expired.
Still no word from my friend who is living in my house.  I'm getting mad about that.
Okay, I guess I'll go try to remember what I wanted to order from ArtBeads because my computer froze and I had to restart it and everything was lost.  Grr.

I'm a slacker entry two

Yesterday I had therapy and I did my long workout.  I was also down to 177, and apparently I haven't been that weight since before October of 2008.  So that was nice.
I also went grocery shopping and gave Max a bath.  I'm so worried he's going to get lice from school.
I also took a shower and SKD and I had sex for babymaking even though I wasn't really in the mood.  I think I already ovulated but I keep not taking my temperature so I have no idea.
I started reading The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest and am on page 49 or so.

I'm a slacker entry one

I seem to have missed Tuesday and Wednesday!  I have no idea what happened there.
Tuesday--I don't remember what I did.  I guess nothing exciting.  I did work out.  And that is all I can say about that.  

Monday, August 23, 2010

Monday

So I have lost ten pounds.  I wish I could keep up that pace or more.  It would be great to be at goal in February.  But I expect my loss will slow down.
I am tired and didn't work out.  I am behind on my water and I don't think I'll be catching up.  But I have eaten well.
I don't think I'm very responsible.  That upsets me.  I'm going to work on that.
I ate a fabulous meal of that welsh cheddar with mustard seeds, duck pate with truffles, and those really good weird olives that are green and taste a lot like black ones only better.
I took Athey out to the Verizon store to see about her and Mommy's messed up phones.  It didn't really help but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
I need to make my chart.

For Sunday

Missed yesterday.  I wasn't busy, just being slack.
I didn't do much and that's okay at one level but not at another.
If I didn't have so many days of doing nothing it wouldn't be a big deal.
About the only thing I managed to do is put together Max's new storage thing, but it's still in the living room.
I'll write about today when I get back from taking Athey to get a new phone.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Sad Saturday

I'm sad.  I just watched Juno and that was sad.  And other things have been making me cry as well although I don't know what those things were anymore.
I know I'm tired.  And I know things aren't all right in my life.
I really want to be losing weight.  And I am sad that I didn't exercise.  I just don't have any energy.  And I couldn't find a good time to.
We went to Target and the Dollar Store today.  That was good.  I got nothing impractical.
Maybe I'll go to sleep early.  SKD and I had sex this afternoon.  Always a pleasant surprise when it's not at night.  
Max took a long nap and tonight he put all of his toys up on the train table.  That was surprising and his room looks a lot better.
Maybe I can figure out something good to eat tomorrow.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Friday musings

I am very tired and trying to use that as an excuse not to work out.  But I want to work out.  But I don't want to.  I am very sleepy.
Max is being very desirous of mommy attention tonight.  That is fine except I am so tired.  And I won't be able to work out until after he goes to bed because he doesn't like it when I work out.
Lately he has been telling Pierre, "Stop talking to me!"  I don't know what Pierre is saying to him.  A few minutes ago he told Pierre that he had to share his animals.  
I finally listed an item on Etsy.  I think it got 2 views.  That is kind of depressing but I'll live.  I really want to make some more stuff to list.  And I know I will start selling stuff eventually.
I am so far behind on my water.  And for some reason I keep snacking even though I'm not really all that hungry.  I thought coconut bark was supposed to curb that tendency!  Oh well.  I hope I see a loss tomorrow but with all the grazing I'm not going to count on it.
I got to work on someone else's newer and fancier Mac and I quite like that one.  Mine is okay but the other one was a superior machine.  
Oh well.  I'm going to stop being down on myself.  I'm feeling bad at the moment and I want to snap out of it.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Therapy Thursday

Today has been pretty good but my throat is sore again.  I was going to start my workout and now I don't want to because of that.  
I ate boiled peanuts for most of the day.  I wonder if I will lose anything.  I don't like being up a pound. 
I'm sleepy.  I had so much trouble sleeping last night and then Pierre woke me up at 6:15.  I woke up at 3 and was up until around 5, so had gotten back to sleep not too much before that.
I felt fine all day but now I'm tired.
I will have two cups of tea and that will be the last of my water for the day, I think.  I'm quite happy with myself for the most part.
I finally took a shower this afternoon.
Max and I went to my mom's for my dad's birthday party.  That was fun, and I didn't have any cake.  Daddy liked his presents from me.
I'm waiting to give the fig preserves to Barb.
Max and Natalee seemed to have a lot of fun playing together today.
I am going to go get Max's night time stuff together.  And maybe boil some water for tea.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Beads

My mom gave me the box of beads.  It looks like if I make any jewelry it will be mermaid-themed.  That's fine because I like mermaids, but they aren't necessarily creepy.  I can make them creepy, though.
I want to be more like myself.  I don't feel like I am the person I want to be.
I need money.  And I'm going to have to make a trip to Atlanta to find out what the hell is going on at my house since the person there isn't letting me know.  I am very frustrated.
I'm all out of sorts because of the money.  I really really need money and all my worrying isn't helping me get it any faster.
Ugh.
I'm going to write and do something else crafty I guess and that will make me feel better.  I'm sure that the coffee I had on too little sleep isn't helping my stomach out, which is of course contributing to my sick feeling. 
Well, I'll make it work.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

For Today

I worked on my book some today.  And I was down a pound!  Stayed on plan all day and am drinking the last of my water in some decaf chocolate tea.  It doesn't really taste like chocolate but it smells fantastic.  And it's not bad with cream and splenda.
I mixed my yogurt with almond butter, brown sugar splenda, and cinnamon.  Yum.
And I had my chicken and cauliflower.  I am just not really very hungry.
Right now I'm feeling quite warm.  Maybe from the tea.
I don't think I have anything else to say.  I missed my therapy appointment today--I thought it was tomorrow.
Tomorrow we're going to the grocery store.  And I am going to get not much food.  I got peanuts today so I'll boil those tomorrow.
I sure would like to feel more interesting.  And I hope I'm down another pound tomorrow.

For Yesterday

I neglected to write yesterday so you get two posts today, not like anyone is even reading but it's the principle of the thing.
I had a sore throat yesterday and felt kind of lousy for most of the day.  But I still got things done--a load of laundry, clean sink, new sheets on everyone's beds, food to eat.  And I took Pierre for a walk.
Watched tv and took Max to school for his first day.  That was fine.
I'm still worried about money as usual.
Oh, and I got milk and a couple of other things at EarthFare.
Max peed in the potty at school!  I was super excited.  He won't go at home, though.  I was there when he did this, so I was very proud of him.
Had lots of tea yesterday.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Sick Sunday

Tummy problems today.  And only a half pound loss to go with it.  That just doesn't seem fair.  I'm drinking some hot (herbal) tea right now.  I'm way behind on water but I'll catch up.
Max is napping.  
My mom and I went to EarthFare with Natalee but they were out of whole milk so we have to go back tomorrow.  That sucks!  Oh well.  I am making yogurt for my yogurt fast.  I'll be doing one low carb meal and then the rest of the day yogurt.  I guess I'm going to freeze my chicken breasts unless I make them later on.
I'm giving Athey a massage tonight after Max goes to bed.  
I don't know if I have much else to say.  
I'm kind of feeling blah and down.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Saturday storms

I had my piano thing today which was okay but not fantastic.  Just me and one other person played.
I am pretty tired now because I didn't sleep well and then woke up early.  No nap.
Dinner at Garabaldi's was really good.  Got the grouper with the poivre sauce and spinach instead of linguini.  Very tasty.  I did have a little piece of bread but that is okay.
I hope I have a loss tomorrow.  Despite the bread.
Suzy and Peter are here and Max was friendly to them which is always nice.  I got home after dinner before Max was in bed so I got to read him stories but missed the diaper drama.
I think I'll start a new book but I don't know what I want to read.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Frustration

Why am I not losing weight?  I'm so pissed.  
I went to my mom's and practiced this evening.  
I'm not sure what else to say.  I took a nap today.  Went to Alice's.  
Played with Max.  
I've found the story I started that is the other side of Running Towards Nothing.  I guess I'll put that in Scrivener.
I really like pate.  Now it's all gone.  
Maybe the extra fiber I took will help me move things along and I'll finally see a loss.  

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Headache AGAIN

Why do I keep getting headaches?  I feel like I have them all the time these days.  Today I got my period.  That sucks.  Oh well, at least now I know why I gained a pound the other day.  I'm down a half pound now.
I'm a little behind on my water.  I get to watch Project Runway tonight, which makes me happy.
We went over to my dad's today and I forgot his birthday presents.  I'm so lame sometimes.  Max didn't want to go but he was fine when we got there.  He played with his trains and chattered away.
It was nice to see them and I'm glad we went over there.  Now to figure out how to make it a more regular event.
We are going to Garabaldi's on Saturday!  I'm so excited.  It is my favorite restaurant.
I have my piano thing in the afternoon so I guess I need to figure out about that.  
David bought my painting to hang up in his Green Quad office.  So I guess it's staying in the family.  Apparently they didn't do the art thing very well, so I'm not really disappointed but I am kind of.  Oh well.
Well, I don't have anything else to say.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Groceries

We went to Publix today.  They didn't have ground chuck so no red meat for me.  I did finally find some unsauced chicken wings so that's good.
I wonder if my tenant is dead.  She does not text or email me back.  
I think I am working towards my financial goal for the month, which is something.
Tonight is dinner at my mom's with Athey.
I need to take a shower.
I am tired and didn't take a nap today.  I think I'm taking celery to my mom's so I can put pate on it.  Since I can't have bread.  I hope that tastes okay.  I love pate.
I am so tired of not losing weight.  I wish I could lose it quickly but I guess this is the more sensible way.  Sigh.
Tomorrow afternoon Max and I are going to visit my dad.
I am on track with my water for today.
Wow, I am like the most exciting person ever.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Headache today

I had a headache for most of the day today but I did take a Tylenol 4 and it's gone now.  I am way behind on my water and that makes me annoyed with myself.
I am also hungry but I don't really feel like fixing anything which has me in a bit of a conundrum.
I have to get Max's bedtime stuff ready.  
I'm going to work out sometime but I haven't yet.  Nor have I written my morning pages. 
I want to have a better schedule and actually start getting things done.  
I am ready to be a success.  I just have to make it happen.
Max put his puzzle together with the back side up today.  I guess he decided it was too easy to do the regular way.  I thought that was pretty impressive.
I think I'm probably going to get my period which is disappointing.  But oh well.  This will give me more time to lose weight.  I was up a pound today and that makes me mad.  But not mad enough to give up.
Well, I guess I'm going to go do something.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Working Monday

Well, I actually worked for pay for an hour and a half today.  And I did laundry, and worked out.  Took care of Max.  
I'm glad I am earning money although it's just a trickle at the moment and will be less than ten percent of my paltry goal.  I really need two thousand dollars yesterday.
I was back down a half pound this morning, which is disappointing since I wanted to lose more.  But at least I'm back moving in the right direction.
I don't know what else I'll be getting done this week.
When I told Max it was nap time today he said, "Sorry Mommy, not taking a nap today!"  I have no idea where that came from.
My back feels okay despite my long workout.
I'm trying to catch up on my water.  That's always a challenge.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Can't decide

So I've just set up an Etsy account so I'll have Creepy Domestic to sell household spooky things and Scarebabe somewhere else to sell baby spooky things.  Right now I'm just going to post on Creepy Domestic I think, but maybe not.  Maybe I'll start with Scarebabe over on hyenacart.  I can't decide.
My back is hurting again.  Sitting on the floor with Max helping him to put trains together really didn't help.
I'm having digestive issues but am hungry now so maybe I'll go make chicken wings.
And I have nothing else to report.

Sadderday

Max said he was sad because it was Sadderday.  
My mom was a lot more supportive today which makes me happy.  I got my office more straightened up and put down the rug we got at the APL sale.
No weight loss which as usual is disappointing.  I did fine and worked out and ate well today.  Maybe tomorrow I'll be rewarded.
I am having a hard time figuring out how to drink enough water.  I really don't much care for water.
I dyed my hair tonight.  Black again.  I haven't looked at it so I don't know how it turned out.
I don't know what else.  I'm not getting a lot done.  I want to do better with that.

Friday, August 6, 2010

My life isn't great right now

I really need money.  I hate this.  I want $2000 just to put in the bank so I can catch up, maybe not be too far behind on my bills.  How do I get this?  I'm so unhappy and worried about money that it's hard to feel like things are going to be okay.
And then there's the house.  What is going on with it?  Why is my tenant not letting me know?  What's happening with the other person who is supposed to move in?  Are they still going to foreclose on it?  Who knows?
I wish my mom wouldn't ask me questions about it, and I wish that when I talked to her about my ideas for my online shop she wouldn't say the things she says that make me feel like it's a bad idea and I'm going to fail at it.  And that even if I work at it I'm still not going to make any money.  It's very discouraging.  I don't have anyone in my life who is supportive of this kind of thing and I don't know what to do about it.
I am going to do it.  I'm going to have a successful online shop and get my Halloween B&B and get my novels published.  And they will be successes.  I am going to get all of this.  I will succeed.  And I'm also going to succeed at losing weight.  I already am succeeding at that.
I so want another baby.  Maybe I will get pregnant this cycle.  I hope so.  I am so tired of trying.  I mean the actually trying part is fun but the waiting is not.
Okay, that's my life right now and why it's not great.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Meatloaf recipe in case it turns out

Something over 1 lb. ground chuck
1 egg
around 3 T coarse mustard
around 3 T sriracha sauce
couple of shakes of soy sauce
1 tsp. brown sugar Splenda blend


Preheat oven to 350.  Mix all ingredients in bowl.  Divide and put into 6 count muffin tin.  Bake for 20 minutes.


Verdict: Meatloaf is a little bit tough, but I'm not what sure to use as a binder since it's low carb.  I made it with 2 tsp. brown sugar Splenda blend and that was too sweet.  I might put in a little more mustard next time.  But it was pretty good, quick to make, and on plan.  I had it with a salad.


Max's little girlfriend is moving to Atlanta.  That's disappointing to me and I've been unhappy about it since I found out.  We went and got our 10 ears of local corn for $1 and our free dozen eggs with $5 purchase from EarthFare today.  So now I have 3 dozen eggs in the fridge.  Well, now 35 eggs because I used one in the meatloaf.  I also got more heavy cream since I only got one yesterday.  
Tomorrow I'm getting my paint so I can make my art to donate.  
I lost 2.5 pounds yesterday!  I'm quite excited about it.
Max is complaining so I'd better see what is wrong.  He went in the sprinkler at school today with all of his clothes on.  They had been asking him if he wanted to go in and he said no, but once everyone else was in there he decided to go in too.  I guess that's what changes of clothes are for.
I hope the meatloaf turns out ok because I'm hungry!!


Tonight maybe I'll make the Chicken Luzane again and the mashed cauliflower but I'm not sure.  I probably should just have bacon and eggs since I have so many of them.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

It's getting late

I worked out super late today.  I don't like doing that but I didn't have a chance to this morning.
I am worried about money.  What else is new?
I want to have a good life, better than what I have.  My life isn't terrible, but I want more than this.
And I want to do something about it but I never do.  That's kind of silly.
Well, right now I'm doing something about diet and exercise.  But that isn't going to change my life.
I'm going to have a good and productive day tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Give corn a break!!!

Why all the hatin' on corn?  I know high-fructose corn syrup is bad, but corn is so much more than that!  It's a vegetable and a grain, not just a grain!  And it's definitely not all bad.  It's been a primary grain source for some cultures for thousands of years.  You'd think that if it were teh evil those people wouldn't exist anymore.  And corn on the cob is one of the best things ever.  
So fuck off, all you corn haters!


I'm also going to give props to bacon.  I put fresh bacon bits on my salad today and it tasted so much better than yesterday's salad!


I'm tired right now and have to go pick up Max.  I did my workout after my piano lesson and also paid the rent.  So that's some stuff accomplished today.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Creative writing

I wrote a lot yesterday in a couple of hours but I am behind.  That's fine.  I will do my best to catch up today.
I did my short workout today and I hope it doesn't screw me up.  I am kind of sore but glad I did it.  I haven't done my other stretches.
We went to Joann's and EarthFare.  I got a canvas and some Halloween stuff at Joann's and the usual at EarthFare.  
I have to go get Max pretty soon.  I wish I had my back brace.  
I am behind on my water.  But I will catch up on that too.
I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night.  That always sucks.
I wish I could earn some money so I wouldn't have to get a real job.  I am going to do that.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Feeling sad and I don't know why

I don't know if I'm detoxing, feeling sorry for myself, or what is going on, but I am just sitting here crying.  I don't have that much of a reason to.  I think part of it is my back, but I just feel kind of silly.  I started crying looking at Max and thinking about how much I love him.  And now I am just crying and can't pinpoint anything in particular that is upsetting.
There are a number of things I'm not really happy about, but nothing new.  And it's not that time of the month so that's not it.
I just hope I feel better soon. 
I've washed diapers and one load of laundry and then I have to do darks.  Eventually I'll get caught back up but not right now.
SKD is at work and Max is taking a nap.  I just caught up on Huge and now I don't know what I want to do.  I don't feel like doing much of anything.

Huge

I have been catching up on episodes of Huge.  I saw part of the first one and didn't watch any others, and now I've decided to start watching it again and I have to get caught up.
We went blueberry picking in the morning.  My back wasn't so bad but it feels worse now.  I hope it gets better soon.  I didn't work out today.
I did eat on plan, but I only lost half a pound yesterday and that is disappointing.  I want to be doing better than that!
I finished the Maisie Dobbs I was reading and have one left.  I took a nap this afternoon which was nice.
I am not tired and it's pretty late so I don't know what I'm going to do.  I will probably go read for awhile.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Trying something new

I didn't do my long workout today.  I did the short one, and the back exercises I found yesterday, and then the heating pad.  I also took a Tylenol 4.  Damn, it's fucking me up.  I did eat something, but I am so loopy.  I hope my back doesn't hurt.  It doesn't hurt when I'm sitting down, just when I walk around.  I am enjoying myself at the moment so I'm just going to stay in bed, thank you very much.
My stomach muscles are sore as well.  But that is fine.  The back stuff upsets me.  And I was up a half pound this morning which also makes me mad.  
I know this weight will come off but I don't like being patient about it.  At least I'm being honest with myself this time.  
I was thinking the other day about how even when I like a song on the radio I will switch stations to see if there is something better on.  I don't know why I do that.  It seems like it says something deeper about me but I can't quite phrase it at the moment.  I am surprised I can even type.
Okay, I'm watching a stupid gymnastics movie and it's fun so I'm going back to doing that.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Thursday Therapy

I had a good therapy session today.  My back is really sore but I found some exercises that I hope will help with that.  I'm back on my diet and I feel good even though Pierre woke me up super early today and I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night.
I'm going to watch Project Runway tonight and that makes me happy.
I don't have any other news and I'm going to go read to Max.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

What a pain!

My back is sore.  I think it's from my quads, or hamstrings.  I don't know which.  But I wish it would get better.  I worked out today and will do my yoga shortly.
We had Indian food today which was good.  
Nothing much else to write about.  I've already drunk my water for today so that's good.  And even though I went off plan at lunch I am still happy with myself.
I lost half a pound yesterday.  I am expecting I'll be up tomorrow but oh well.  I won't let it upset me.  After all, I know I was off plan.
Anyway, I'm going to go back on plan tomorrow and that will be that.  Although really I was supposed to get another cream cheese and now I don't have enough.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Hoping for no storms

Last night we had a horrible storm, with hail, even!  The power went out which pissed Max off to no end.
SKD texted me this morning to say that they'd already delivered our new video camera but it's not here so I don't know what kind of crack they are smoking.  I wish I could have some. :P
Finally got some progress made on the mystery.
And I flipped the mattress and changed the sheets!  Also washed the mattress pad and the blanket.  The blanket is still drying.
My mom is over and playing with Max.  
My life isn't very exciting.  Not that I want lots of excitement.  That exciting time was all bad stuff and that was no fun at all.
I'm happy for the moment other than the money issues.  I'm glad I'm finally doing something to lose weight and get in shape.  And I am feeling creative and although I'm not doing as much as I'd like, it's a start.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Induction Monday

I started my Atkin's induction today.  But other than my cup of coffee in the morning I had nothing until 3:30 aside from water.  I know that's not good but I wasn't hungry and then I got busy.  I went to the grocery store and got good stuff.  We went to the library and I picked up my books.  
So, I had tuna salad over lettuce and cheese.  It was good but I need to eat something else.  Oh, I worked out, too. 
And that is what I've accomplished today.  I'm very tired now.  I really want to flip the mattress so I'll try to do that soon.
I am losing weight and inches so I'm happy.  I like instant gratification although I know that's not a long lasting recipe for success.  
I think I'll be adding in some yoga because I am so sore right now.  And I know it's muscle tightness.  I think the yoga will help with that and it's not like it's very intensive.
Okay, I think I'll rest a little bit.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sunday Reading

I just finished reading Artichoke's Heart by Suzanne Supplee.  I must say, something about it really struck home for me.  I know it's a teen book but it was so good!  I think I will put it on my wish list.  
Max is napping and SKD is at Office Depot or somewhere.  I think he's using his store credit that he got back from the broken printer.  He's mad that it was on a gift card.  I agree.  And I also think they should refund the full purchase price including tax.  
My mom likes the house they went to look at today but I'm guessing they probably won't end up getting it. I think they should.
I want to make some money.  Tomorrow I'm going to pick up my hold book at the library and now I have two other books to return, and I have a few to return and then check back out again.
I am way behind on my water again.  
I should probably go eat something.  I am kind of hungry but not really.  I don't want to wait too long and then starve and eat a ton, though.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Target: Saturday

Today we went to Target.  Also a rummage sale at the APL (Animal Protection League).  We got some stuff for Max and also a rug!  I don't know yet which room I'll put it in.
Then this afternoon during Max's nap my mom, Natalee, and I went to Target.  I got the white t-shirt for tie dyeing, and also the little Beatles shirt which rocks!  And some Thomas sunglasses.  And some of that Falsies mascara so we'll see about that.  And more of the PF Chang's Broccoli Beef!  I love that stuff.  
After that we went to get ice cream so so much for induction today but I will not beat myself up.  I was down two pounds this morning which is good.
I'm way behind on my water so far today but I'll catch up.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Friday!!!

I overslept this morning.  Max was late to school.  He was sad when I left.  I am kind of out of sorts.  I did manage to work out.  And I had my coffee so that is good.
I'm not sure what else is on the agenda today.  My mom didn't come this morning so I don't know what plans we have later on.
I want to do something productive but I don't know in what way.  I will work on it.  
I am going to go through some more magazines and maybe I'll get around to flipping the mattress and changing the sheets.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Giant Squid Thursday

I finally finished up my Giant Squid Hat that I'm sending off to be auctioned for charity.  
I have also worked out today, gone to EarthFare for tomatoes, cheese, and basil (and pie crusts), and looked around for my T Tapp book and other stuff.
After I pick Max up from school we're going to the library so I can pick up my books.
I wish I were losing weight.  And I wish I were losing more inches.  I'm so discouraged.  
I miss Kellogg's Concentrate cereal.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Piano

I had piano today. And we went to the grocery store. I am going to try to do lower carb for a little while, see if it helps with my weight loss. I did work out today. My mom came over to watch Max so I could.  I have one more bottle of water to drink and that's good.  My back is still hurting but I am wondering if it's my back getting stronger and the muscles hurting that way instead of a sore back.
I'm not sure what I'm doing tomorrow.  Nothing out of the ordinary.  I did go through some boxes today so that was good.  I think I might actually be making progress!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Finally no headache!

I did my short workout.  And had leftover ratatouille for lunch.  I think I'm figuring out the motive in my book, and that's good.  I would like to flip the mattress and change the sheets but I'm not sure I'll make it.  My back is still sore.  I don't know why.
I didn't realize that it was so late!  I thought it was after noon instead of after one!  I have to go pick up Max soon.  I don't know why I got confused since I knew my mom left just a little after noon.  Whatever.  My brain isn't working right I guess.
I went through three boxes today so that's a good start.  Of course, I didn't really put everything away, but the pictures are in the bathroom closet ready to be hung up and I found one whole box of books to get rid of.  That's an accomplishment in and of itself.
I'm a little behind on my water, but not much.  I'll make goal.
Tonight I want to get home not too late from dinner in case SKD is feeling amorous.
I wish I could find all my T-Tapp stuff.  I'm annoyed that I don't know where anything is in all these boxes.  But I'll figure it out.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Four months until my birthday

So I have four months until my birthday.  I didn't get a lot accomplished in the first two months of my six months until my birthday event, so let's see how much I can get done in the next four.  
I worked out today even though I had a horrible headache and back ache.  The back ache is mostly gone, as is the headache, but I can't tell if they'll stay gone.
I know the headache is related to not drinking enough water.  I don't know what the back ache is related to.  Maybe not exercising yesterday.  But I don't think so.
Anyway, I've done stuff today.  I wrote my morning pages, moved stuff around in the "nursery," worked out, went to Earth Fare, and am on target so far for my water.
I've also taken a shower.  I am not dressed yet but I have some time yet before I have to get Max.  Then maybe we'll go over to my mom's so he and Natalee can play in the pool together.
I don't know if my SKD is coming home today or not.  I think he is, but I don't know when to expect him.
I hope I stop feeling crappy.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Sunday at the zoo

My mom, Max, and I went to the zoo this morning.  We rode on the tram back and forth between the zoo and the botanical gardens twice, then went to the aquarium stuff, saw the alligator, zebras, giraffes, elephants, lemurs, and bears.  Max fed the giraffe some dropped lettuce from another kid, and then nonchalantly walked away.  Completely unimpressed that he had just fed a giraffe.
SKD is on his way to Atlanta, or possibly is there by now.  Well, probably not because he always stops so many times.
I took a nap while Max did and then just finished cleaning out the fridge.  Yuck!  I hate doing that so I will make more of an effort to not let it get like that.
I also want to work out but I guess I'll be doing that while Max is in bed because he doesn't like for me to exercise for some reason.
I want to do the long workout four times a week, ideally Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday.  This time I'll be doing the long workout three days in a row in order to get on that schedule but that's okay.
I'm not in a great mood but I still want to get stuff accomplished.

Saturday in Wonderland

SKD and I finally watched "Alice in Wonderland" last night which I really liked.  He thought it was too confusing and not for children, but I didn't think it was supposed to be for children.
Max finally had his poop, so that was a relief.  He also took a bath.  
I took a long nap and didn't do much else.  Including write, obviously.
I did work out so that was good.  
Short post for an uneventful day.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Friday is for bleeding

My period is very early.  I don't really care.  This way I can start trying again this much sooner.  I just wish we weren't having so much trouble.
Max didn't want to go to school today.  I told him he had fun at school and he told me he didn't like fun.  He also said he is not a kid, he is a boy.
We went to the Friends of the Library sale today and I got an Uncle Wiggly book and also a hardback copy of The Godfather.  I am trying to get hardcover copies of all my annual reads, I think.  So far I have all the Jane Austens and also Helter Skelter: The True Story of the Manson Murders.  I was hoping to find a copy of East of Eden, but no such luck.  I love that book.  I have a paperback of it but I think it's falling apart.
I am terribly thirsty.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Thursday is for the found

My friend's husband came home!  He's in the hospital now and I have no idea what happened to him.  I hope he'll be okay.  He's got kidney failure and other injuries, and has been in and out of consciousness.  It's been such a strange story!
I think I'm going to do that Project Sketchbook thing.  My mom is worried it will spread me too thin but I want to do it.
I did the 15 minute workout today and am boiling peanuts in the crock pot.
In a little bit Max and I will go to my mom's and the library so Max can get his medal for reading 15 books.  Well, having books read to him.  He's not reading yet, as he would say.
He was cranky at school but while we were walking down the hall he said he had fun at circle time, so that was nice.
My mom is sort of getting my house in order which is nice.  I want to make it a home even though I know we probably won't be staying here.  I have trouble with that.  I don't like to make the effort for transient places.
I was hungry earlier and now I'm not again.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Wednesday is for the missing

I have a friend whose husband is missing.  I don't think he just up and left her even though I guess that's what the police think.  He never showed up for work on Monday and he didn't call in, either--he's worked there for ten years.  She got a text from him around noon that, day, just a few minutes before the phone was powered off, and the text was just "LOL" in response to a joke text from her.
This is haunting me.  I first heard about it on Monday but it's all I could think about yesterday and it's been consuming my thoughts today as well.
I am in a really bad mood.  She's not a really close friend but I hate that she's having to go through this and I'm really tempted to go to Atlanta to see if there's anything I can do, even though that's just kind of silly.
I hope there is some news soon.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Post for Tuesday

Today I got replacement library cards for Max and me.  They have ones you can put on your key ring now which is cool but I don't put things on my key ring.  But I like the option.
Max didn't want to go to school today but he was fine when we got there.  He is in a good mood I think.  
I went to my mom's for coffee and I'm not sure it was caffeinated.  I am so tired.  I will have to do at least a 15 minute workout.  I feel bad for not having started up with Pierre's walks again yet.
I was doing that "I write like" thing that is going around and it looks like Margaret Atwood is the only woman?  What is up with that?  
I've been reading a biography of Louisa May Alcott.  
I'm currently watching one of those America's Next Top Model marathons.  What a way to spend my day.
Athey's former teacher came over this morning and we talked about her Mother-of-the-Groom dress.  She had asked me to make her one but she found one in a catalog so she's just going to order that one.  It was nice to see her.
I wish I felt more creative.

Post for Monday

I forgot to post yesterday.  Max went to school like a little lamb, and didn't even really want to come home when I went to pick him up.  
We had dinner at my mom's and gave him the Percy we ordered that arrived while we were out of town.
I also got my driver's license replaced and also handed the stuff in at the credit union and hopefully got my new debit card ordered.
I worked out as well.  That is something I haven't done today and I am feeling out of sorts but don't know if I will work out or not.  I want to sort of but not really.
That's yesterday.  I'll post again for today.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Back Home

So we stopped in Saluda on the way home to see Eleanor and her mom and son.  It was nice to see them and her dog seemed to remember me and came over for a pat.  I felt special since he is quite shy.
Last night I made an awesome quiche out of leftovers.  Cooked one onion until it was very done, then added 4-5 cloves of garlic and one very well chopped up seeded tomato.  Cooked the tomato all the liquid was gone.  In the egg mixture (next time I will use three eggs but this time I used four) I put a 1 inch square of chopped up good bleu cheese, 1 cup of half and half, some Italian seasoning, and two tablespoons of coarse ground mustard.  Also about 5 oz. of shredded swiss cheese and the rest of the package of mexican blend shredded cheese.  Poured it all into the pie crust and baked it for 35 minutes.  It is so fantastic.  Next time I would use more tomato but not a whole lot more.  Otherwise I was quite impressed.
Right now I'm watching the Harry Potter marathon on ABC Family even though I have them all on dvd.
I think I lost 5 pounds this week but that just seems too incredible.